Nablopomo

Well, I guess I can't copy and paste blogs from LJ to here, so that sucks. I had a pretty decent post for day one of my attempt of Nablopomo, and I can't put it here... and that irriates me! But it is way to freaking late for me to figure it out now... but I am on a mission to get in to the blogging habit so I wanted to put something here now, I'll figure it out tomorrow!

Quick Post

We still do not have internet in the house, after much fighting with Comcast, we decided to go with AT&T but are waiting for another tech to come out and figure out why the jacks in the house don't work! It is very frusterating, although more so for S then for me since she is up there all day long. I at least get a little bit of internet time at work when I'm not too busy (which I am obviously not right now as I am posting).
On the baby making front, we are yet another month down with no plus sign. It is becoming more and more frusterating and disapointing, but we just keep trying. I have to have faith that it will happen in its own time. We got a Clearblue fertility monitor, so hopefully that will help nail down timing a little better.
I should get back to work now, but I added a new little gadget, so if you read, sign up as a follower over there ---> on the sidebar!

Crazy Busy

I have been so crazy busy in the last 3 weeks. With all the drama of taking over the new store (the old manager was very hostile for a few days, all the while still living in the on-site apartment while I worked in the office down stairs). I have been going back and forth between concord and Antioch on work days, and shuffling myself back to SF on my weekends. Its gone by way fast, but with one week to go until moving day, I cannot wait for it to end!
The keys were dropped off to the apartment this morning, which means we can move in at any point after it gets a good cleaning, locks changed (I MUST call for this first thing tomorrow morning), and an inspection from the boss lady. We've pretty much decided that next Monday will be the day and cannot come too soon. I miss being away from S during the week, and as much as I love the friends I am staying with, my back does not enjoy the couch surfing.
On the TTC side of things, S and M did the deed (well not the "actual" deed, but you know what I mean) a couple weeks ago, and by the looks of S's chart, may have missed the big O, but at this point we are in the midst of another tww.
S has already decided that if we get a BFN this time around we will be taking next month off. With moving and getting settled I have to agree that its probably a good plan. This was our 5th try, so maybe a month off will do us good.
Hopefully once we get settled in to the new place I will have more internet time, as it is I only get snippets of reading time here and there.

Another try down

We thought we had gotten our timing really great this time, but alas once again it was no go. I'm pretty bummed, because I was convinced we had nailed it. But as S put it last night, the first 2 times our timing was pretty obviously off, so this was really just our first "good" try. And these things take time. I just keep telling myself that.
Now things are pretty up in the air with our work and move back to the east bay. I just got word this morning that I am starting at the new store first thing tomorrow morning. Talk about short notice. I feel like I still have loose ends at my current store, but I will just have to work them out by phone and hopefully the guys can pull it together in my absence. It wasnt supposed to be this quick, but its what needs to happen in order to get us back out there and out of here, so I'll just have to make it work.
I'm greatful that i have good friends in the east bay that I can crash on their couch until we can move out there, because I would so not enjoy the hour long commute(each way from our current place) and all the gas that would go along with that.
Sadly though with all of this I will be away from S for extended periods of time, at least for the next couple of weeks, but we will survive. LOL, she'll probably enjoy the peace and quiet anyway. So I am going to take her grocery shopping before I leave( we only have one car), so that she will be set for the week, and hopefully we can get this all settled sooner rather than later.

I did it

I sent my mom a no on 8* email. That was the hardest thing I have done since I came out to her, but I realized that I could not just say nothing to her. I don't know if it will do any good considering her religion, and what I am sure they are preaching about it in her church right now (anyone want to bombard a church on sunday morning, lol). I basically took Coles( thank you!!!) and reworded it a little, I just couldn't come up with the words on my own.
I don't know what she'll say, and honestly I'm a little scared of her response, but hopefully she will see it our way. We never spoke of the Valentines SF weddings (even though she knew I was in a commited relationship at the time), so I don't really know how she feels on the civil rights side of it, I only knows how she feels about my "lifestyle" on the religious side of it.
I told S that I think she would feel diffrently if there were already grandchildren for her involved, but at this point because it is all a waiting game for us, I cannot put that card out there. We decided that we will not tell our parents until we know for sure (and for my sanity will be waiting until after the first trimester).

* Prop 8 is an amendment to ban same sex marriage in California.

Help!

I'm addicted to fertility friend!!! I got a paid membership for us, and now I can't stop looking at our chart, and searching the circles!!! I need an intervention!!!!
It's also giving me a sense of hope for this cycle that otherwise I wouldn't have. I don't want to get my hopes up, but things look so much better this time around...
Heres to hoping!

TWW #3

So we're done trying for this cycle. We started testing earlier than the past 2 cycles and are a little bit more confident that we didn't miss the window this time. We insemed (is that even a word?) on Wednesday and thursday of this week and S was pretty sure she felt O pain last night (while at the NKOTB concert no less, lol). So now we wait. If this is a 27 cycle, we should know in just about 10 days. Keep your fingers crossed.