No go

This cycle was a no go. We're bummed but on to the next round. I just keep telling myself that its only been 2 tries, and it will happen. This is meant to teach me patience for sure!

Waiting

We are in the midst of our TWW. So not a lot of excitingness going on at the moment. We probably won't know much until at least Tuesday, since we are waiting till day 34 to test. S's cycle is anywhere between 27 and 34 and looking back on the last 9 months of charts, this would be 34 day cycle, so we wait. I hate waiting!
I'll update when I know anything for sure.

Cycle 2 part 4

So it looks like we may have had our timings off for the last 3 tries we did this cycle. We thought that all the meds S has been taking were making the Ovulation tests (or pee sticks as we call them), come out really light, and just not catching the "O". But last night I had her take one just to be sure, and sure enough it was darker than the past weeks. So we decided to try one more time this cycle.So the boys will be on their way here soon. And when you look at her cycles, since they are regular in the fact that they go 27, 30, 34 (and repeat) this should be a 34 day cycle. So we may actually be right on. Here's to hoping.
Again, if we get pregnant this cycle, we will be due in may, our "magic" month. But then again, we have a trip to Napa/ Reno at the end of this month so if S is pregnant, that means no tasting at our winery (Andretti, we highly recommend them) and no drinking at the slots. But against us having a baby, that really doesn't mean much.

Impatient

I am way to impatient to do this baby waiting game. I am one of those people who wants to open all my christmas presents on December 24th (or earlier if possible), and just don't really have a patient bone in my body.
I want S to be pregnant now, and further more, I want to know that she is now! How do people do this for months and months?
I have hope, but am still guarded. I am sure that it when it does happen I will be caught completely off guard.
So we wait. The boys are coming over tonight for one more try this cycle. Send good baby vibes our way!

And so the tww begins again.

That's right, last night was attempt #3, after a very delicious dinner, and massive amounts of expensive wine (what was I thinking on that one? I am paying for it today!). It was really nice to have M and MB over last night, we don't often have people over, as its not super convenient. So it was fun to have a fancy dinner (we even sat at the table! we never do that lol), and good conversation.
We are going to try again tonight and tomorrow just to cover our bases, but we have at this point begun the dreaded two week wait again. Timing on this round was actually really good because next Sunday M and MB are leaving the country for 2 weeks, so we will know whats going on before they even get back. And before we go to Reno for our mini vacation.

A random question...

How do you stop from buying baby stuff when you are not even pregnant yet? We go to Target ( on a by-weekly basis, cause we love that place), and while S is looking at shoes I am looking at the baby stuff ( they are directly across the aisle from each other). And I just want to buy all the cute stuff that is there!!!! I stop myself now, but I don't know how long thats going to last. M admitted to us that after our last insemiation attempt he had gone to buy a baby shower gift for another friend and bought some onesies for our bean to be. I want to buy stuff too!!!! But somewhere in the back of my mind, I cannot help but think that doing so is bad luck!

Getting ready for try #3

So we are getting ready for try #3, and my love is very sick. I can't imagine not trying this time, but at the same time, she's been so sick for the last 2 weeks that I just want her well and not trying to figure out if she's ovulating ect.
We plugged the numbers in to Fertility Friend, and well, its not any help at all. I realize that no one is the same, but why can't this just be easy for us?! We (ok well she,lol) just took this months first OPK and it showed a very faint positive (again, why do these things have to be a guessing game, can't there just be a yes or no?). So we are figuring on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday just to cover our bases. Luckily our sperm is free ( I count my blessing for this everyday!) and we have a donor who lives close by and wants this just as bad as we do (again, blessings being counted). So we will try as many times as it takes, but man am I impatient!!! I just want that lil babe growing in her belly, and then to be able to hold the bean in my arms.
We were talking today about how it would be fitting if it were to take this time around. May birthdays surround us ( her, my mom {who share a birthday} one of my brothers, her brother, several friends, multiple cousins on both sides, and some aunts and uncles thrown in for good measure), and if it were to take this time, we would be due right around the end of may. I can't help but take this as a good sign, although i am much more guarded this time around. I always thought that I would be able to take it all with a grain of salt, being as well read as I am on this particular subject, but when you are in the thick of it, its just not so easy to let it go.
Wish us luck, cause here we go again!!!