Impatient

I am way to impatient to do this baby waiting game. I am one of those people who wants to open all my christmas presents on December 24th (or earlier if possible), and just don't really have a patient bone in my body.
I want S to be pregnant now, and further more, I want to know that she is now! How do people do this for months and months?
I have hope, but am still guarded. I am sure that it when it does happen I will be caught completely off guard.
So we wait. The boys are coming over tonight for one more try this cycle. Send good baby vibes our way!